Someday, when I waked up from my bed, I found a lot of dandruff stuck on my pillow. At that moment, I felt despaired. I realised that I, or my body, was a factory producing rubbish, which recalled the sense of the materiality of the body. It was both shameful but appealing, it was abjection that French philosopher Julia Kristeva proposed.

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In Chinese stories, there was the "Jiaoren", a creature like the mermaid. They wouldn’t cry with tears but rather pearls. I fell in love with this beautiful fantasy, which provided me with an illusion to hide in, to get away from the gaze of the society.

So I replaced all the excrements with pearls, I became over the society moral standard.

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Yellow gloves, a cleaning tool, stand for the resistance of the dirt.